Prayer

I want to pray hard because there are a lot of things that are happening in my life right now but the thing is sometimes I don’t know where or how to start my prayers. Did you ever feel like waking up in the morning and you just want everything to be fine? I have my prayer alarm in my cell phone every eight o’clock in the evening. I got the idea from my cousin tintin, I asked her why 8pm? She said “because it’s the only time she thinks that she has nothing so much to do or think”.

So going back to praying, as I’ve said sometimes I don’t know how to start my prayer. Do I have to start it within myself or my parents, my sisters and nephews and even my brothers-in-law and my grandmother? Or sometimes I pray to God that my relationship with Cy will be stronger. Did you ever started your prayer like everything just pop-out of your head like your parents’ health and relationship, your siblings and your nephews health also, your relationship with your boyfriend that all I can say is that “God, you know what is in my heart and mind and I don’t know where to start.  I surrender it all to you. Amen.” I know it’s a lazy person’s prayer but it was all I can think of at that moment.

As I was searching my files I saw this prayer that someone sends me in my email.

Dear Lord,

            I thank you for this new day. I thank you for my being able to see, hear and feel this morning. I am blessed because you are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and you keep on blessing me.

           

Forgive me on this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for your forgiveness.

             

Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and everyday to clear my mind so that I can hear from you.

           

Please broaden my mind so that I can accept all things. Let me not whine or whimper over things I have no control over. It is the best response when I’m pushed beyond my limits.

           

I know that when I can’t pray, you will still listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do your will. Please continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak. Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement to others.

           

I pray for those that are lost and can’t find their way. I also pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don’t know you intimately and I pray for those who don’t believe you. But I thank you that I believe,

            I believe that God changes people and God changes things.

           

I pray for all my brothers and sisters, my mom and dad, relatives and friends and for each and every member in their households, I pray for peace, love, joy and their good health. I pray that they will be out of debt and that all their needs are met.

           

I pray that every eye that reads this – knows there is no problem, circumstances or situation greater than God. Every battle is in your hands for your fight, I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it and every ear that hears it. In Jesus name, I pray.

Amen.

I have to include there my nephews, Cy, closest cousins, bestest and true friends. This prayer has it all and I want to share it to everyone. God bless us all!

xoxo,

L

Teary Monday (But look on the brighter side)

Last Saturday evening my sister Ate Lot left to US to bring our Daddy home because he is sick. Daddy went to the US way back in 2000 to work and the last time I saw him was December of 2001 when we went to there to spend Christmas and most of all to experience snow. As far as I remember I requested him that, I went there together with my sister Darling and Mommy we can’t bring our other sisters because they’re already above 21 (US laws and policy).

Liberty Park, New York City

Atlantic City, New Jersey

Downtown Philadelphia

Love - University of Pennsylvania

I took this one at Honda Service Center, Houston

University of Pennsylvania

With friends and co-workers of Daddy in Houston Texas

When Friendster (before) and facebook (now) became a trend we’re always saying to Daddy that he should make an account to see our latest pictures and family gatherings here in the Philippines, he would always say that I forgot my passwords and just send it in my email. I always tell him it is much easier to see the pictures in Facebook but still he rather use his email. But eventually he made an account in FB but with no pictures of him, our Daddy is not that techie he doesn't even know how to upload pictures. My sister Lot gifted him a digicam because we’re really wanted to see what he looks like already, he doesn't even know how to skype. And then one day I received an email from Ate Lot she said ‘do you wanna see what Daddy looks like?’ I said of course I do and here’s his picture way back 2009.

I told Ate Lot that he looks old already with the white hair and wrinkled face and everything, but we’re glad that we saw his latest photos. I posted this in FB and my other sister Chic saw it, she asked me where did I get the photo? It was sent to me by Ate lot through email she even said wow long hair!

And this morning the first thing I did was I checked my facebook because I left a message to Ate Lot if she’s already there. And the first thing I saw in my news feed was this photo and there you go tears chasing each other down my cheeks.

After 3 years, this is what he looks like now. I cried this whole day even now while writing this blog entry, my cousin tintin even texted me that my eldest sister cried too when she saw this photo. The only thing that uplifts my spirit and my mood today was a text from tintin she said "the good thing here is that you can still see him grows old, he will be here already at your wedding to you walk you down the aisle" "kmusta naman ako? she said in my case I can't see him (her Daddy) anymore, what he looks like or does he even laugh that loud when he's old, you know things like." Look at the brighter side :D

xoxo,

L